Habakkuk’s Encouragement

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As part of my Lenten walk, I’m reading Biblical verse and then writing poetry as a meditative response. Today, my reading took me to Habakkuk, Chapter 2. I was stunned: it seemed as though Habakkuk was looking through the lens of time to America today. Here’s an excerpt:

Some people’s desires are truly audacious; they don’t do the right thing, unlike the righteous person, who lives honestly…but the arrogant man doesn’t rest, he opens his mouth like the grave; like death, he’s never satisfied.

He gathers everything to himself, nations and people. But people tell mocking poems and tales about him, saying “Doom to the one who multiplies what doesn’t belong to him.”

They will rise up to bite him. Those who frighten him will awaken and he will become plunder for them because of all the human bloodshed and violence done to the country, to the cities, and to the inhabitants.

Doom to the one making evil gain for his own house, for putting himself above the people.

I couldn’t help but make certain connections, though I will leave it to each reader to experience their own quickening of Spirit. You’ll probably get a hint of how it spoke to me in my responsive poem (and the photo I chose):

Habakkuk’s Encouragement

Speak out, tell it like it is,

Write it in large letters,
Don’t be bullied
Into silence.

Rise up!
Call out the arrogant men,
Who reap riches
Upon the sorrow of others.

Doom to them and their evil gain,
Their lifeless, cold idols
Will not save them
From you, the awakened.

— Cherie Renae, 2/24/18

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Something Bigger than Myself

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“It is important that life is lived with a sense of partaking in something bigger than ourselves.” – David Adam, A Desert in the Ocean.

I read this line today and the devil’s advocate side of my brain said: “Why? Why is it important to live life with a sense of being part of something bigger than myself? What if there ISN’T anything larger? What if God/Spirit/Universe/Divinity is a myth? It’s not as if God walks among us. Won’t I have wasted my life if I live it imagining I’m part of something bigger, and it turns out that this ‘something bigger’ isn’t real?”

So I imagined living my life without belief in anything divine. I imagined throwing myself into my passions, my pleasures, my profit, my gain. Because I’m a charitable person, this life I imagined involved helping others, being kind, being involved in civic organizations, etc.

Then I imagined that same life led with a sense of Community – of being linked by Spirit with others, the world, the universe. And my heart opened and tears came to my eyes. I felt excited and eager. I felt so happy!

So, this is the answer to my question: It is important, because it fills my life with joy if I live with a sense of greater purpose and community, with the belief that there is Divine Presence and Connection. Whether it’s ‘real’ isn’t at all relevant: it’s the wrong question, the wrong frame.  What matters is if it’s true, and it IS true, because it causes my life to resonate and my spirit to glow.

I can call it God, Spirit, Divine, Sacred, Universe: I can give it any name I’d like. But it is more than merely ‘important’ that I live with a sense of being part of Something bigger than myself. It is essential. It is integral. It is necessary, if I am to live MY life at all.

FOCUS 2018

FOCUS 2018If you’ve followed my blog at all, you know that every year, I create a FOCUS list. (Click here to create your own.) 

This year, the list was less ‘personal affirmation’ and more ‘marching orders.’  Short, sweet, and to the point, it summarizes how I will approach 2018.

  1. Writing is number one, and I’m turning up the gas on this lifelong passion and profession. Production is the goal and the focus.
  2. Adventure! I’m not giving myself permission, I’m removing the internal barrier that says…actually, I have no idea what the barrier says, other than “mmmm, maybe not?” In any case, I’m tearing that wall down.
  3. Connection with family & friends requires staying open and receptive, so I’m inviting love and joy to FLOOD in.
  4. Kindness is always important, and this year, I will focus on lovingkindness toward myself and others.
  5. I am a mystic. I have insights, I have vision. It’s not necessarily well looked upon by society or even by religious folk. But I need to be true to me, and much of my creativity stems from the mystic soul that swirls and sees.
  6. Learning is important. No matter the subject, it broadens our ability to interact with our own lives by giving us new mental perspectives. And it helps prevent Alzheimer’s. Enough said there, right?
  7. Spirit has put it on my heart to help others through my photographic skills. By teaching. By capturing the world & people using my fresh vision. By offering my talents in whatever way Spirit nudges.

So there it is. And as I look at my list, I feel excitement upwelling in my heart and soul. I can’t wait to get out of bed every morning, because look what I get to FOCUS on this year!

Happy New Year, all.

So, What Are You Here For?

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“If you came to this place expecting a tame story, you came to the wrong place.

If you came for a story that does not threaten you, you came for a different story than the one we tell.

If you came to hear of the coming of a God who only showed up so that you could have a nice day with your loved ones, then you came for a God whom we do not worship here.

For even a regular baby is not a tame thing.

And goodness that cannot threaten complacency and evil is not much good at all,

And a God who would choose to give up power and invincibility to become an infant for you, certainly didn’t do it just so you could have dinner.

But.

If you came because you think unwed teenage mothers are some of the strongest people in the world;

If you came because you think that the kind of people who work third shift doing stuff you’d rather not do might attract an angel’s attention before you, snoring comfortably in your bed, would;

If you came because you think there are wise men and women to be found among undocumented travelers from far lands and that they might be able to show you God;

If you came to hear a story of tyrants trembling while heaven comes to peasants;

If you came because you believe that God loves the animals as much as the people and so made them the first witnesses to the saving of the world;

If you came for a story of reversals that might end up reversing you;

If you came for a tale of adventure and bravery, where strong and gentle people win, and the powerful and violent go down to dust;

where the rich lose their money but find their lives and the poor are raised up like kings;

If you came to be reminded that God loves you too much to leave you unchanged;

If you came to follow the light even if it blinds you;

If you came for salvation and not safety;

then, ah, my friends, you are precisely in the right place.

So what are you here for?”

– Quinn G. Caldwell, All I Really Want: Readings for a Modern Christmas. Abingdon Press (2014)

 

Following the Rules

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When do you start listening to Christmas music?

I used to belong to the ‘not until after Thanksgiving’ school. One holiday at a time – let’s follow the rules, hey? Then I discovered the liturgical community, who eschew Christmas music until Christmas Eve. Until then, only Advent music (you know, that dirge-like, minor-key stuff) is allowed.

And they are just as militant about their musical beliefs as the after-Thanksgiving folk. Although I now consider myself part of the liturgical crowd, I never could jump on board with this. Instead, I argued that traditional Christmas music IS the preparatory music of our era. I made little headway with them, nor they with me. After all, we each know that we’re the one who has it ‘right’. Right?

Every year, people come to verbal blows about when to listen to Christmas music. But, really, this is such an insignificant issue in the larger scheme of things. It’s no wonder our world is so full of strife! And we lose opportunities for joy when we spat about these arbitrary rules.

Over the years, I’ve loosened up a lot. These days, I wear white after Labor Day. (Avert your eyes if you must.) I drink bubbly whenever I feel like it, not just for special occasions. And I listen to Christmas music any time I please – be it November or even July.SONY DSC

My goal this year is to follow only the important rules and to let go the rest. But what is important? Well, this being the Christmas season and all, I decided to look to Jesus, who says ‘judge not, lest you be judged.’ (I think he means this to apply to music as well as everything else.) He says ‘love your neighbor as yourself.’ (And everyone is my neighbor, according to him. Even dirge lovers.)

Most importantly, he says, ‘I was hungry and you fed me, I was a stranger and you welcomed me. I was naked and you gave me clothes, I was sick and you took care of me. How did you do these things? As you do it for the poor, you do it for me.’

These are the ‘rules’ that matter. It’s not about when I listen to certain music; whether I sit, stand or kneel while listening to particular types of music; or if I wear selective colors (or styles) of clothes. Instead, it’s:

Have I loved? Have I welcomed the stranger? Have I fed, clothed, and cared about others? Have my resources – including my taxes – been spent to help the poor?

Because this is what Jesus said and what he did, and if I’m going to truly follow him, it’s what I need to do, too.

May the new year bring less division, and may we all remember the actions and attitudes that matter. (And quit bickering over the ones that don’t.)

Choose Ye This Day

jesusMy politics is driven by my Christianity. If my politics doesn’t match the words and actions of Jesus, then my politics must move. It’s not a matter of liberal or conservative, fascist or Marxist. Those are all labels used to justify or to attack.

What did Jesus say? What did Jesus do? That’s my politics, beginning and end.

Jesus’ message is not complicated. Love one another. Shelter the stranger. Feed the poor. Heal the sick. Pay workers a living wage. If my neighbor (and EVERYONE in Jesus’ mind is my neighbor) is hungry or thirsty or sick or endangered – ensure their needs are met. Without applying a ‘deserving’ test. (Good Samaritan parable, for reference.)

This is called: Following Jesus 101.

I’m not very good at it. I’m not very good at loving, at abstaining from judgment, or at most of what Jesus is about. But it doesn’t stop me from aiming my spiritual, emotional and political ship toward the North Star. (If he hasn’t been called that yet, well, now he has. lol.)

And it doesn’t stop me from pointing out when ideology that purports to be aiming toward him has gone awry. It’s not rocket science. Does ‘this’ (any this) jive with what Jesus says we should do? If it doesn’t, all the justification in the world will not make it magically align.

As a Christian, I am not called to pretend that it does, for civility or unity or any other reason. On the contrary, I’m called to the opposite.

And not following Jesus is not following Jesus. Which is fine. People don’t have to follow Jesus. People can choose to follow their political ideology instead. But they must be HONEST with themselves about what they have chosen.

What this election has done is to throw back the curtain on left and right alike. Unmasked the ugliness that has masqueraded as Politics In The Name Of Religion. The light of day has finally flooded in, and no one can pull the curtain closed again.

The bottom line is, “Choose ye this day whom ye will serve. As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.”

I’ve chosen. Not Democrat, Republican, liberal or conservative. I’ve chosen Jesus, in the strictest sense. Does a policy (a stance, an attitude, etc) contradict what Jesus said, what he did, what he envisioned? Then I cannot support it, and I will speak against it if asked.

Does it affirm his vision of unabridged love, care, concern, and acceptance? Then I’ll do my best to affirm it and help make it so.

I don’t care to hear excuses about why doing something Jesus commanded (feed, clothe, house, provide medical care) isn’t practical or possible. My motto: the impossible just takes a little longer.

I’m a terrible servant of Christ. I’m gritchy, judgy, cranky. I know this. But I will keep trying until I run out of days to try.

Good Friday

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Good Friday thoughts:

I don’t believe in substitutionary atonement. As I’ve commented in the past, I don’t believe God set up all of creation, called it good, then turned around and ‘tested’ the first two people, who – of course – failed the perfection test, whereupon God HAD to declare ALL of humanity fallen forevermore, destined for hell, until God finally sent Jesus, God’s own son, who God had murdered so God could call it even-steven-all’s-forgiven.

Another reason I don’t believe the substitutionary atonement story is because the focus then becomes ME. I am such a worm. I have sinned. I have fallen short. I am the reason for every lash, every thorn prick, every pound of the hammer. Me, me, ME. It’s all about ME. I spend my finite emotional energy feeling ‘bad’. And doesn’t that feel good? Look at how contrite I am. Look at how Christian I am.

Except that’s not what Jesus asked me to do. He was pretty darn clear about where he wanted his followers to spend their time and energy. And that was in feeding the hungry, giving water to the thirsty, clothing the under-clothed, caring for the sick, visiting the imprisoned.

Jesus’ statements were truly visionary in light of today’s world, where companies like Nestle are buying up water rights (including the right to rain water), which means that poor people in many parts of the world have NO ACCESS to water at all.

His statements were truly visionary as we look at America, which refuses to provide all of its citizens medical care, instead doling it out to those who can pay, and turning a blind eye when the financially insecure are ruined, or when the poor die.

And when he commanded his followers to do these things, he did NOT add the caveat, “If they’re deserving.” He didn’t ask us to set up a complicated system to be sure only the ‘truly’ needy received help. He didn’t ask us to judge everyone to be sure ‘cheaters’ weren’t included. He didn’t ask his followers to be watchdogs for ‘laziness’. (In fact, he had a pretty pointed parable that advocated for equal pay regardless of hours worked.)

No, what he said was: FEED. GIVE WATER. CLOTHE. PROVIDE MEDICAL CARE. VISIT.

And he also said DON’T JUDGE. He said this a LOT.

When I play the ‘who is deserving‘ game, I become the judging crowd who shouts, “Crucify him!”

“Why don’t they just get a job?” Crucify!
“Why don’t they get a BETTER job?” Crucify!
“Why don’t they move? (But not here)” Crucify!
“They must be lazy.” CRUCIFY!

These statements are the nails. If I say them, if I believe them, I am the hammer. I am the rough, unfeeling, unyielding cross upon which Jesus bleeds.

For me, the meaning of the crucifixion is clear. Stand up for justice, not ‘legality’. Stand up for food for all, water for all, clothing for all, health care for all, compassion for all. Then, and ONLY then, may I kneel at the cross and say, My God and My Savior. Anything else is wallowing self-service.